Tears

Posted by Justine | January 10, 2009 | 10 Comments

I went to the temple Wednesday. Oh boy did I need it. I sat in the temple after the session and cried and cried and cried.

Why? I have no idea.

Was it because I had lost my recommend and hadn’t been in a couple of months? Was it because I was PMS-y? Too much chaos? Not hydrated enough? Who knows.

All I know is this. I entered the temple at a slight run. I walked out of the temple hesitatingly, once again surprised at the calm and quiet inside my head. I walked out not remembering the exact words the Spirit used to answer my tears, but remembering the feeling that came with them.

And when the words to describe how I was feeling were so clear in the temple, and so murky once I left, I knew I needed to go back. And soon.

And that’s just all I can say about it. Because the words are still back at the temple…

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10 Responses to “Tears”

Giggles
January 10th, 2009 @ 1:17 am

Thank you for sharing your peace. I’m suddenly finding myself wondering when my next trip to the temple is and hoping it is soon.
Brooke
January 10th, 2009 @ 10:21 am

oh justine, i love you! i’m a crier too and it always puzzles my husband to pieces when i can’t just say “why.”

xo
cindy baldwin
January 10th, 2009 @ 10:58 am

The same thing nearly happened to me on Thursday. Except I’d done all my crying Wednesday and so I think my tear supply had been used up. But it was a similar situation. It’s been awhile since I was able to sit through a whole session (I’ve spent the last few months pretty sick). Thursday night, after I got home, I found myself enormously peaceful for no apparent reason and thought, I need to go back, soon.
Michelle L.
January 10th, 2009 @ 12:15 pm

ooh, I think I’m due for some temple crying.
wendy
January 10th, 2009 @ 1:54 pm

Ditto on the thanks, Justine. I didn’t have such a great experience last night, and I feel an urgent need to go again.
elizabeth-w
January 10th, 2009 @ 9:56 pm

I just took out my endowments about six weeks ago. By the time I get to the end, I’m just sobbing. I am hoping that will settle soon. It’s really awkward to sit in the celestial room and make those ‘trying to hold it back’ noises.
I’ll tell a little story.
In all the years my parents have been going, sometimes more than once a week, Mom said she has never, ever had a tv wheeled in so that it could be viewed via sign language/captioning. She has never read the words. But, on Friday AM that is what happened. It was such a blessing for me. I learn so much better by reading than hearing. It was wonderful to read it all. The movie, or live, is just too distracting, at least for a newbie like me.
mmiles
January 10th, 2009 @ 11:39 pm

Lovely post. I don’t comment here often, but I want to say I love your thoughts. You are one of my favorite posters.
J Rankin
January 12th, 2009 @ 1:22 pm

I have a child with a disability. Life is wonderful and oh so difficult. Living with a child with a disability is such a life-changing thing. You learn that life has nothing to do with you and everything to do with your child. You have a child that will never grow up, and you don’t have any clue what to do about that. You have to go from an adult trying to make a way in the world to an adult who only cares about what will happen to your child…big change. How do I go about taking care of my child? If you have any ideas, let me know.
Kay
January 12th, 2009 @ 3:53 pm

I love the feeling of being ‘home’ I get when I am in the temple. I like to just ‘be’ and feel whatever I want to feel knowing that it is o.k. I am and have always been a very emotional person, crying for me is so normal. Dose my husband understand my crying yet after all these years? Not even close! Being in the temple with absolute peace is like nothing else. Leaving the temple is always sad, walking away leaving something behind. I promise myself I will keep those feelings in my heart, but they never last long enough. That is probably my fault. Going to the temple and having those feelings doesn’t come often enough. When I was first endowed I lived for the next 10 years very close to a temple and went often. Now I live a good few hours drive away and have 3 children it is so much harder to get there. I miss it and cherish it when I go.
Heather H.
January 13th, 2009 @ 8:41 am

I recently had a temple visit that took me away from total chaos at my house and several times that day where I just wanted to cancel my babysitter and go to bed with my kids at 8. But I made it there and the peace was so refreshing, so needed.

Ahhhh, nothing profound, not even temple tears, just peace.