I’ve been in the kitchen making cinnamon rolls this morning. In fact I got so excited about baking this morning that I temporarily forgot that I had signed up for a Segullah post today. My good friend had a baby last week, so in the grand tradition of Mormon women everywhere I am going to serve her by baking. I love baking. I love feeding people my baked goods. I love the praise I get and the smiles that follow. I love eating them too, which is partly why I can’t ever give up running, even on the days I just don’t feel like getting out of bed I figure the cookies I get to eat will make it worth it.
In fact, I spent a couple of hours last week reading blogs trying to find copycat cookie recipes for some stellar bakeries here in NYC. You can call me silly if you want, but I found it invigorating. I was so anxious to experiment, taste, and share. They turned out FANTASTIC! I always share my recipes. I figure, share the love, none of this keep it secret nonsense. However, you do have to actually follow the recipe, and that includes sifting when it says to sift, and room temperature butter and eggs are not optional if the recipe says “room temperature”. Baking is a science people! Anyway, that’s a tangent for another day. Because I don’t want to scare you away from trying new stuff. I want to remind you that the best way to learn is to do it. I gave an excellently delicious oatmeal chocolate chip cookie recipe to a friend of mine and she still hasn’t tried it. I asked her, “What in the world are you waiting for?”
“I’m too scared to try it. I’m afraid they won’t turn out as good as yours.” I gave her the recipe THREE YEARS AGO! But fear of failure is a real thing. Whether it be about cookies or something bigger. And here’s where I make my English major leap to an article from the last issue of Segullah, Finding Courage by Nicole Trone. She shares her first experiences as a missionary with a nervous trainer during a steamy Ukraine summer. Go read it and relate. We have to find the courage to overcome things that scare us. We have to admit our fears and face them. The things that follow may be scary, and we may even fail, but we’ll grow; we’ll learn.
The first batch of dark chocolate chocolate chip cookies were over baked and a little too cakey, but next time around I’ll use less baking powder, more soda and bake them less. I only know because I’ve tried. Gotta run, I can smell cinnamon and sugar and yeasty delicious rolls about to be ready in the oven.