You don’t need a pillow to be happy
It was a simple place, this provincial Cambodian town near the border of Vietnam—a collection of stilted houses, animals, and some small businesses. No grocery stores or anything like that, just a market consisting of wooden stalls and stands and piles of food spread out on tarps. Fish flopped in metal tubs; slabs of meat [...]
Forward
I spent a semester abroad in Israel as a college student in 1994. One of the places we visited was the Qalandia refugee camp. I remember the intensity with which our Arab professor spoke of the circumstances of the camp. How hard he tried to impress upon us the conditions under which they lived. How [...]
Beautifully, Impossibly Wonderful
I had a rather serious, soul-wrenching post planned today, but I just don’t have it in me. My oldest son received his mission call to Milan, Italy last night and I am giddy, silly, over the moon with joy. Italy. Are you kidding me? Florence, Venice, gelato, pasta, rolling vineyards, soaring Alps. It’s all too [...]
Refugee Mothering
Natasha Loewen’s mothering post wraps up the UP CLOSE topic of motherhood for May. Natasha lives in central Alberta with her husband, four children, and a large yellow lab. She is starting a 4-year B.A. in English this fall, after a 10-year period of full-time mothering. She recently achieved a goal to have a poem published [...]
Wasn’t there supposed to be more to it than this?
Our UP CLOSE topic this month is on motherhood. We are pleased to bring you this piece from guest author Rosalyn Eves. She is a (mostly) stay-at-home mom to two young children, currently living in Southern Utah with her chemistry professor husband. She has a BA in English from BYU and an MA and PhD [...]
Hope and Power
Pushing my youngest on the swing then stepping back, I dialed my sister’s telephone number and stared up to the sky. Prayer welled up inside of me and the hope of a blessing upon this call was summoned silently. I was scared to tell her, not that she would begrudge me my news, not that [...]
A Catalog of Hopes and Sins
Some things I hope are true: 1. That I will always have my sense of humor. 2. That when I visit America, my Australian accent will be happily accepted and understood. 3. That my divorce will help my sons have stronger marriages. Divorce messes with your head. I have spent a depressing chunk of the [...]
Rock the Boat (don’t tip the boat over…)
You know how you can pinpoint the exact place and time you were when you learned about the events on September 11th? Certain days become frozen in time; indelible impressions that mark a change. On 9-11 I was leaving to shop for a washing machine. My in-laws were visiting. My mother-in-law was upstairs ironing. There [...]
Learning to Walk
There is, in our culture, an interesting pressure about correctness, about avoiding errors. It shows itself in words like competence, excellence, and perfection. It shows itself in how we treat each other in our friendships, in our families, in our professional lives. We are largely expected to behave without error as we navigate through our [...]
“All Things Must Fail”
I try hard to minimize the amount of medication I take, but I have a pretty major sleep disorder, and drugs have been a heavensend in managing it. When my sleep meds stopped working last winter, life got really hard. My health problems (undiagnosed chronic issues) predictably worsen when my sleep isn’t good. I felt [...]








