All Saints’ Day, All Souls’ Day
One family, we dwell in Him; One church above, beneath; Though now divided by the stream, The narrow stream of death. One army of the living God, To His command we bow; Part of the host have crossed the flood And part are crossing now. —Charles Wesley (1701-1778) November 1st, 2007, Munich, Germany. Slowly, aimlessly, [...]
Pray for me; heal my heart
After the funeral, the house felt oddly clean and quiet– especially in little Robert’s room where his blue-trimmed crib lay empty. Just days before, Pam’s miracle baby had pulled himself up to standing, laughed at the sunshine and reached for her arms; but in the morning he was blue and still. Pam stepped onto her [...]
The Healing Power of Creativity
“In the first weeks after the death of my daughter,” Lisa told me, “I couldn’t even look at my sewing machine or my quilts or any of the creative things I’d always loved.” “There didn’t seem to be any point,” she continued, “what was the use of my silly projects in this life where you [...]
A Dream and Three Ultrasounds
First, the dream, at eight weeks pregnant: It’s my birthday and there is some kind of crisis–a doctor masked in black trying to kill people, but friends organize a huge line of women knocking on the door bringing me gifts. I wake from the dream with an overwhelming sense of being loved. I don’t understand [...]
The Winds Will Blow; I Will Listen.
I was a young-married with two toddler sons and we were on a two-year adventure on the pacific coast when my maternal grandfather died. I remember thinking about my Grampy in the evening of his life, the build-up of the tempest, far-away and non-threatening. His death became somehow anticlimactic because it happened 3,000 miles east [...]
Dear to the Heart of the Shepherd
Today’s Up Close guest post is by Sunny Smart. She is a stay at home mom with four wonderful, hilarious kiddos and one hard-working, good-natured husband. She has battled depression at various times in her life and to varying degrees. She wanted to share her story so that others who suffer silently and alone might [...]
Feeling the Loss
One of the things I love the most about participating in a faith is the sense of optimism it provides–the glass-half-full outlook that assures us that even when life is hard, God has the power to consecrate our afflictions for our gain (2 Nephi 2:2). As C.S. Lewis stated, “God can make good of all [...]
UP CLOSE: Rushing into Remarriage
Several years ago I took a long walk with my future husband while we planned our life together: how to finish school, where we would live, jobs etc. I’m sure we mentioned our parents in that discussion but didn’t worry about their approval (we already had it) and we certainly didn’t consider the effect that [...]








